As I grew into a young woman, I fell in love and married a man who loved and accepted me.  He was a successful bright young attorney and I believed at last I could really feel happiness.  Three and one-half months after our marriage he was killed by drunk driver while walking home from the train.  My future immediately became my past with a phone call from my cousin saying my husband had been hit by a car.  Unable to bear the loss, I took a massive attempt on my life.  By Court Order, I was placed in a mental institution.  There I found a wonderful doctor who explained that she knew there was a difference between grief and crazy and released me after a short stay, instead of the minimum six months, with a promise of no more suicide attempts.

Still unable to comprehend my life or the overwhelming pain inside, I spiraled down into cocaine and alcohol, as the trauma of my stolen youth surfaced with the familiar feelings of abandonment and lack of love.  I tried to fill those voids in my life with substances.  I ended up at the Betty Ford Center after years of abusing myself; a child’s size 14, starved with an ulcerated nasal cavity.  After my stay at the Betty Ford clinic, I continued treatment through Alcoholics Anonymous meetings in Hermosa Beach, California.  There, at the morning meetings I attended, I met and fell in love again with a very kind and gentle man.  I had learned to trust love again.  Life became anew.  I was clean and sober, and in love.  One Christmas morning, hidden in the new espresso machine he had given me as one of my gifts, there was a beautiful engagement ring.  He proposed to me that Christmas.  He too, was killed in a motorcycle accident before the marriage.  

Again faced with the loss of love & support, I did not know what to do, but I knew what not to do – no substance abuse.  That was all I knew.  My life was again shattered in to one million pieces.  During this time, I took in my young niece and nephew to live with me.  They were an inspiration to heal for I wanted to take better care of them than I had of myself.  I will never forget my niece in the hospital room with me and my dead fiancé kneeling down in front of me saying: “Aunt Kathy, we will get through this together.  You have been here for me and my brother and now we are going to be here for you.”  Our hearts were broken, but I knew then somehow, someway, I would have to find a way to live again.  

It was at this time I began my spiritual quest to heal the hurts and pains in my heart, having to go all the way back to revisit all of the pain I experienced.  I began attending Agape International Spiritual Center learning spiritual principles taught by Dr. Michael Bernard Beckwith, my spiritual teacher and mentor.  I learned how to meditate there.  I began to go within the silence of my soul to discover how to love and forgive myself.  I began to accept the beauty that was me as well as how to embrace the child who had been beaten unrecognizable and molested.  It was an uphill climb to self-acceptance, self-love and forgiveness.  Endurance taught me strength of character.
  
I understand despair.  I understand recovery and total healing.  Inside for the very first time in many years, I started to feel my life was worth living. Spiritual growth and development showed me a way to once again expect good things in my life.  I began to think independently of anything that had ever happened to me.  I began to understand that I no longer needed to protect myself and dropped the wall of protection. I became willing to explore the present moment with a clear lens free from past experiences.  Peace began to reside where restlessness once existed.

I am inspired and surrendered to my best life.  I am a metaphysical minister, spiritual counselor, teacher, keynote speaker, healer and visionary.  I am the creator of the Angels of Life© which are a series of original angels and original angel artwork.  They are spiritual teaching tools  I developed as an extension of the counseling services I offer to my clients.  The Angels are mechanisms of transformation created to help people cope with the challenges life brings in its various forms.   Each Angel has special spiritual qualities which facilitate new perspectives and encourage spiritual growth.  The Angels’ philosophies elevates the consciousness of individuals and emanate light throughout the world in several ways, Angel of Life products, Words of Inspiration, Affirmations, Seminars and Spiritual Counseling.  Their presence invokes oneness by amplifying there is only One Mind, One Heart and One Love throughout the Universe.